I have never felt as lost as i do at the moment.
I have always been a person that knows what i want and how to get it.
and in most cases i have got what i wanted.
But everything is a blur at the moment, in every aspect of my life
I don't know what i want to do, i don't know where i am supposed to be.
I am so confused
I need direction
BTW: its 3.30 on sunday morning and i need sleep, lack of sleep might have something to do with the cloudyness
but i cant sleep cos its a scary thing to watch somebody die.
strange
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