Still no baby!
Today I am 9 days over due, or 17 days from my original due date. Still no baby, the babies head still hasn't engaged and still no signs labour is coming.
This has been a very hard pregnancy, with having to quit my job very early on and all the sickness through out and everything else that has gone on, you would think I would be cut a break and the baby would have been born early. I feel as though I am being punished for something and the light at the end of the tunnel seems to be getting smaller and smaller.
My thought pattern originally thought that I had an easy pregnancy with Alyssa and a complicated birth surly this time with a complicated pregnancy I would have an easy birth, but the longer it takes the less likely that is to happen.

Tomorrow I have an appointment with the specialist, I am quite nervous about this as I don't know what he is going to say or where things are at. He might say the baby is still to high and she has had a previous caesarian well just put her in for one now. The other that bothers me is how they will go about the induction and will I be able to cope with the intense pain an induction can bring.

I am also sick and tied of being short tempered, grumpy and cynical. I am rude to almost everyone and that is not who I really am but I can't seem to help it at the moment, the words that some people just think in there heads actually comes out of my mouth and offends people.
And please stop asking if I have had the baby to my face, if I look pregnant and there is no baby around then there is your answer. I know some of you think this is funny (Andrew) but I have to live and struggle with this every day that I am still pregnant and don't need insensitive people to try and be funny.