Monday, October 30, 2006


I sometimes wish that when Alyssa is around rather than people rolling their eyes at her actions or how I am trying to deal with it. Offer help, say do you want me to keep an eye on Georgia while you deal to this. Or is there anything I can help you with.
Don't bag me out, I am doing my best in a sometimes very hard situation.
Be a support, don't tell me I'm wrong all the time, but offer suggestions on how to do it better.
I love my daughter very much but sometimes I just don't know what to do.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

In the last few days I feel that I am coming out of my shell. I have been able to have fun and be just who I am. There are still things stopping me from moving completely forward but I have and am still working on it. Its been nice to let go and have fun.

Georgia is thriving on the bottle. She is so much happier and more energetic. I have had no pain or discomfort giving up breast feeding so I obviously wasn't producing much.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006


I have had to give in to breast feeding. Georgia just wasn't getting enough nourishment from me. Her fontenelle was sunken and she was always hungry. So I started her on bottle feeding yesterday and even though she had had a full breast feed she drank 250ml of formula.
is it admitting defeat? I think it hard to let go as a parent and know that you can't do it on your own. But for the health of my beautiful little girl I had to bite the bullet.

Sunday, October 22, 2006


Lately there are quite a few things I have been battling with, such as trying to find out the real me. I wouldn't say that I am there but this week I think I have had a break through. I feel I have made some new friends and discovered how to have fun again.

Also this week I found out I have a passion for something that I didn't even realise I did until I started talking about it.

I also really enjoy helping people

all of these things may seem small but have really helped me to realise the Rebecca I am.
I am tired of being shy and quiet cos that is not who I am and I am making excuses not to do things that I know God is calling me to do

Thank you Lord for waking me up from this inactive life and putting a fire under me to burn for you Amen.