blessedchick: June 2006

Something good?

Well this might be something good out of something bad.
My mother got a phone call from my dad the other day and he said to tell him straight away if my nana dies.
The thought is he would use it as an accuse to come down to Christchurch.
I haven't seen my dad since I was 13 and I would love to introduce him to my children and my husband and to myself.
I would love to see my dad, I'm just scared of what he would think of me and my children and what I would say to him.
My Nana is still fighting but more and more is going wrong with her.
I don't want to get my hopes up about seeing my dad as I always get heart broken.

Babies

I have a database of babies born since October last year of people I know. I noticed there seemed to be a rather strong trend, here are the name af the one who have been born already and see if you can pick
in order
Zara, Ethan, Tyler, Jack Zackery, Georgia, Samuel, Rocco, Joel, Elyjah, Toby, Joseph, Harlen and Caleb
Hmm only 2 girls what is the world coming to.

My Nana 2

As you can tell this is not my Nana but she's just cute so I had to put a photo in.

Today I went to visit my Nana and although she is still yellow, she was as bright as a button.
She was smiling and talking and taking notice of the people around her, this is the first time I have seen her do this since September last year.
It is because she is having constant stimulation (where she doesn't normally have any stimulation at all)
For the first time she acknowledged Georgia and actually spoke to her and listened to Alyssa sing to her, she really seemed to see us in the room, where as normally she would barely even open her eyes.
She is still on her way out but what a way to go, she got to see my girls, what a great blessing for her and for me.

My Nana

Well today is Monday, My nana wasn't supposed to last the weekend, but she is a fighter and she is still here.
My Nana has liver cancer she is very yellow in colour and her body is starting to shut down.
I love my nana very much, she was my sanity when everyone else in the family was doing there thing.
The struggle I have is I should be feeling sad that my Nana is going to die but I feel relief.
My Nana has dementia and she is in hospital care, doesn't have the use of her legs, cant talk and doesn't remember who anyone is, what kind of life is that and now that something is finally killing her I am happy for her.
I said goodbye to my nana years ago because she is not the same person I knew when she was growing up. I look upon her as a caregiver would, as a resident not a family member.
I will be sad when she goes, I think, but at the moment I feel nothing.
Does this make me a horrible person, or is just that the nana I once knew and loved has long gone and it is just her shell that remains.

The Dog

My mother said to me yesterday "that we have a wonderful way of going down the toilet and coming up with a golden terd"
In her opinion here is another example of this.
Warwick and I have always wanted a dog, we both absolutely love cocker spaniels. Well last weekend when we got back from the wedding there was a text on my ph saying do we know anyone who would like a free dog, a cocker spaniel. I thought oh yeah whatever.
The next morning I said to Warwick would you like a dog, well check it out. To cut a long storey short Yesterday we brought home a wonderful Cocker spaniel puppy named Henry as our newest member of the family. That's a golden terd in my books.