Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Gods Blessings

We went to visit a family member in a rest home a couple of weeks ago, and a lady came in with a tray full of stuff to make our own cups of tea and placed it on the bed. I decided to play hostess and make a drink for everyone in the room when I herd this strange gagging sound, I looked down to see Alyssa when brown stuff coming out of her mouth. While I was making the tea she had grabbed a spoon and dipped it in the instant coffee (thinking it was milo) and put it in her mouth. mmm powder coffee.

Its interesting how God works, on Saturday I found money left in an ATM machine, there was no one around the bank was closed, I didn't know what to do.
So I took the money home with me planning on taking to the bank on Monday.
when I got home I was shaking and I felt so guilty having someone else's money in my possession.
I will admit I thought about keeping the money cos I could have really used it but I'm to honest. On Monday I took the money back to the bank and the tellers were stunned that someone would actually own up. One actually said "it gives you hope that there are still some good people out there" it made me feel really good. When I got back in the car I felt as though a huge weight had been lifted off me.
The same day my grandad was robed when he was visiting my nana at her rest home, someone went in to his wallet while he was out of the room and when grandad went out of the room the second time they took what was left in the wallet. To me this was strange how it was on the same day and about the same amount of money. It just makes me sick that someone would actually purposely go into a jacket pocket get out a wallet and take the money.

Praise God today I had a visitor and this person had a gift for us and it was the exact amount I needed for something and I really feel God blessed me for my honesty I just wish that there were more people that would do the same.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

I feel there is a calling in my life to work in a certain area and at the moment I am just waiting for conformation to see if this is what God has in store for me. I feel very drawn to this area and feel I called to pray for people that enter this area. I'm felling quite excited because I love what it involves but I am also concerned that my shyness wont let me do what needs to be done.
I would have to work with people and the strange thing is I love being around people I just don't know how to talk to people I don't know.

So I am really praying for conformation, but I do doubt a lot, I think that I am unable to do things but I know with God all things are possible.

Monday, May 15, 2006

How long

I wanted my title to be "how long do I have to kick my own ass" but it didn't fit.

With cold weather setting in and being stuck in doors I am so glad Alyssa is at kindy. It took her a few days to get used to it but she really seems to enjoy it now and asks if she has kindy everyday, and is very disappointed when she doesn't go.
Georgia has grown so big and her smile makes her eyes sparkle
I have two wonderful girls

I am a shy person and some peoples first impressions of me is that I am cold. The truth is I just don't know how to act around people I don't know very well and sometimes people I do.
Lately I believe that God is giving me opportunities to break this unaffectionate thing I have going on but I keep failing. At least twice a week God put a situation in front of me where someone is upset and needs a hug from someone and I am normally the only one around and I fail every time. When I have time to reflect on how the situation went, I kick myself cos I really want to be there for the person and I'm sure they think I don't care, but that is so not the case I just have to get over this barrier.
I think the worst thing is these people really need a hug or some comfort and are left stranded because I can't get over my shyness to give them what they need.
Lets hope the next opportunity I get I will succeed.